Tillie

几年前，我在英国教书的时候，曾遇到过一个很特别的女孩。她是别人眼中的怪物，所有人都排斥她。因为她很丑、很笨、并且16岁才小学毕业。正因如此，我对她还特别关心。她妈妈死了，爸对她很不好，根本就不养她。她叫Tillie，那个可怜的孩子。在毕业那天，学校曾组织一个活动，要每个孩子，送给一个同班同学一张毕业留言。我们班23个人，22个人都好了，只有Tillie一人没有人送给她。我懂她的感受。我曾经被人排斥过，她受到伤害，却说不出口。Tillie低着头，她肯定哭了。下了课后，我发现桌上一张纸条。是Tillie的。

I feel really lonely. It's like the whole world dislike me. I really want to be a part of them, the popular ones. but I can't. I wish I was never born. Mum said that I was lucky. I was born in the time when all the chaos began. All the other babies died, except me. That's why I'm so ugly and so stupid, and older that the others in the grade. They say that I was such an idiot, that I couldn't go on with school. I feel sad. I never wanted to be that ugly, that stupid, and older that the others. But, how can I choose? Is there any use. Now mum died. The only one that I once loved. It's so unfair, how all the people are better than you, and you're so unlucky. My mumu is a nurse, but my dad is so bad. He

doesn’t

have a proper job, and he alwany get drunk. Mum had enough of him, ao we moved away. Sometimes, I even want to die. I have nothing, now my mum has died of a disease. Since I have no friends, no family, I have nothing to care about. Sherry,

you’re

the only one who likes me, I thank you. But

I’d

rather you not, I

don’t

want you to feel pity of me.

I’m

going to go to a far away land., where nothing is harder that it seems. Everythings so happy there. Goodbye.

——Tillie

我看了，眼泪落下来，希望她不要干什么傻事。第二天，她没有来学校。第三天也没有。连着一个星期，她都没有消息。这件事，对整个学校都有影响，就连平时连靠都不愿靠近她的学生，都优点担心她了。学校去看Tillie的家，没有人。我也听Tillie讲过，他爸爸没有和她住。过了9天，学校报警了。结果很明显。Tillie自杀了，在给我留言里面写的“仙境”，原来是天堂。消息出来的那天，整个学校的反应都很大。他们全部都哭了。他们后悔了。可惜太晚……

这是几年前的事情，Tillie死后，我回国了。但是，我会永远记住——Tillie，那个可怜的孩子。

（乱写的。嘿嘿嘿嘿）